elccifo : idiot girl used my adorable nick so easily! X(

ah.. thanks for reading my stupid blog (again). :) I love you. x.o.x.o.

uhm. well, let me tell you for first information: I had been in elccifo #elevensciencefour since a couple of days ago. I can't say that's the bad one, but yeah.. it's not the good one though. xD *sorry guys.
and.. I guess I have a trouble with the friend in elccifo. let's call her.. AYA. at first, I didn't think there was something would happen between me and her #at least no fighting even though we're not a good friend, but hell yeah, it happened just now.
our school had a some kind of tradition to make a clothes of class for P.E class. well, we desaigned our name, and number in the clothe. I'm the third who wrote in a piece of paper to desaign my clothe. nea vengeance; XIII that was just what I wrote on.
it was around an hour when I saw someone wrote aya_vegeance.
ohh how clever she was! she even got wrong to write my favorite boy ever in this world's name.
the next thing I knew, she approached me and said: can I have it for a moment, please? I wanna change my nick.
I gave it to her and waited. then she returned it to me, it was written : aya_vengeance.
holy shit! you just don't know how upset I was!well, that was not really a big deal, but come on! I have to wear the same name with her? hello??
no thanks.

nea JB vengeance

those fuckin' stuff are realized just now. :(

hey, guys. let me say "welcome" to you who have read this, thanks for the time to at least a little bit respect about me and this fuckin' life. thank you so much.
hm. I guess I have nothing to do with my -well, let we say: bestfriends. I actually have no idea why I feel so.. so annoyed by them about this things. hell, it makes me feel idiot and pathetic at the same time.
I mean, I'm talking about their boyfriends. it's not like I have some kind of jealousy to them who are in their lovely relationship but, come on guys! think about me, please? hello? would you like to explain why and how you chose them rather than me? would you at least think about me a little bit when you were together with your boyfriend and I was watching your back and thinking about idiot things?
tell me, why did I feel so betrayed these times?
and what about these times when you talked behind my back with your boyfriend, mocked me because of all bad sides of me and laughed? and what about these times when you shared your story of life with your boyfriend and told me nothing?and what about these times when you held each other hands and watched me watched you with idiot sight?
tell me, what made me felt so disappointed about you all guys?
I remember the times when I was trying to ask you about your secret and you hid the things. I remember the times when I felt sick because you was sharing your story of life to others. I remember the times when you stabbed me behind my back, mocked me around and laughed at me.
and please tell me, what made this friendship changed so far?
it still remains in my head, the joy and the laugh. we respected each others and spent our time together. friends caught me when I was falling. friends held me when I was down.
and now tell me, where are them? where are our beautiful memories?
it's idiot when books and poetry said friendship lasts forever. it's idiot when they said nothing could destroy friendship. it's idiot when they said friendship is pure.
oh goddamned, hope it gives you hell.

take this rubbish, honey. take it yourselves and hope it puts you through hell.

neaJBvengeance.